Yes, I stammer
While conversation
often on the same word
I get stuck
despite all my practice, home work
I wedged on this or that word
even I toned my throat
clenched fists
struck forehead by palms
there are a few words
which get trapped in my vocal chords
You rightly distinguish me
I stammer
There are number of questions
which I want to ask
but couldn’t
where hard, domineering voice
without any interruption is the prerequisite
since childhood
villagers used to say
I am ‘Thattha*’
How curseful is ‘Thattha’ for a society
I came to know it when
my son had just started speaking
and my father was restless to know
whether his grandson doesn’t stammer
like his own son
In school
in college
on ‘Chopal**’
in office
this place
that place
in front of me
behind me
a number of people laughed at me
Many actors, screenwriters, producers
to make you laugh
victimize my stammering
Who made fun out of me
who laughed at me
who melted my self-confidence
I don’t remember
I didn’t remember
except
everyone in this world
stammers
someone unwillingly like me
and someone else
after surrendering
stammers from his
knees, spine, mind.
kumarbadyal@gmaiI.com
*A term (for stammering) used in In Punjabi and Dogri langague
**Village meeting place
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